Sunday, 10 February 2008




The Buddha was born in what is now North India and was the son of a king called Suddhudana who ruled the Shakya tribe. Before his birth, his mother, Maha Maya dreamt that a white elephant descended from the sky and entered her right side. It was the custom at the time for a couple to return to their mother's kingdom to give birth. During the trip the Buddha was born in Lumbini, which is modern day nepal. Many accounts say that his mother died during childbirth and that he was brought up by an aunt Maha Pajapate.





Back at the palace, his father consulted eight seers/fortune tellers. They all gave the same prophesy. That either the Buddha would be a 'universal monarch' (great ruler) or would be overcome with compassion for the suffering in the world and thus become a great holy person. Of the eight, only one gave the prediction that he would definitely become a great holy person. He would be referred to as "The Buddha" which means awake one, after his enlightenment, but at this point in his childhood, he was called Sidartha Gotoma.




His father didn't want his son to be a holy man, and so protected his son from seeing suffering by keeping him inside the palace and surrounding him with luxury. It worked long enough for Sidartha to grow up and marry a woman called Yodudhara and have a son which he named Rahula, which means 'bond'.





Eventually, the prince felt too stifled by living in the palace and insisted on going outside. His father was worried, but consented, allowing him to go in a covered coach. But the Buddha, who had never seen suffering, peeked out and saw what are refered to as 'The Four Heavenly Messengers'. That was, a sick person, an old person, a dead person and a holy man. The driver of the chariot answered the prince each time he asked what he was seeing.




That evening, the prince was upset by having seen suffering, and so the king put on a dancing show to distract his sons mind. But the prince woke up and saw the dancers asleep, covered in sweat and snoring with their make-up running over their face. He realised that suffering was a part of life and that he wanted to be a holy man. He got the chariot driver, Channa, to take him out to the forest where he swapped his fine clothes with a beggar, and walked looking for the answer to human suffering.




He ended up studying Hinduism and Yoga with two teachers, Alara Kolama and Udaka Ramaputta, and became so accomplished at Yoga that there was no more he could learn, but he still wasn't enlightened, so he became a homeless wanderer with five companions.




After a long period of austerities and burning and starving himself, he wandered off alone into the forest. He only ate one grain of rice a day and soon collapsed into a ditch from malnourishment. A milk-maid called Sujata mistook him for a forest spirit who had granted her a wish and so she nursed him back to health. While he was recovering, he heard a man go by on a boat, the man was teaching his son to play a stringed musical instrument, explaining that to get a good sound, the string mustn't be too tight or too loose, and the aesthetik realised that living to extremes wasn't a spiritual path.




So, when well enough, he sat under a tree and vowed not to move until he had found the last answer that ended human suffering. Mara, the God of illusion, heard of this and sent his three daughters to tempt him, but it didn't work. The aesthetic continued to concentrate on finding the answer to human suffering. After forty-nine days aged thirty five he finally broke through and became enlightened... sitting under a tree in Bodhgaya, central India.




He stayed and enjoyed the bliss of Nirvana for a while, then decided there was too much suffering and ignorance in the world for people to be able to understand what he had found, so was about to wonder off into the forest forever, but the Gods appeared and told him there were people who would understand and begged him to return to the world and teach, which he did.




He wondered back and found his five former companions. Initially they mocked him because he was well-fed, but soon saw that he had found the answer. In Sarnarth, near where he had found freedom, he gave his first sermon to the five aesthetics, which is known as the 'Setting the Wheel in Motion' sermon.




This sermon gives the four noble truths, that all life is unsatisfactory, suffering is caused by craving, craving has an end/is impermanent like anything else, because it has an end at all it can be ended forever and there's a definite path that does so.




Then the path is described as an eight-fold path, a series of guides of how to conduct one's mind, body and life in a way that will end craving and so end suffering.




Listening to the discourse, Kodanna found Nirvana such was the Buddha's wisdom. Soon all the aesthetics were enlightened. In two months, they had been joined by sixty more people who found Nirvana and were known as Arahants.




The Buddha spent four months in Varinessi during the rainy season, then went to see a king he had earlier promised to see.




There were three seasons at Bamboo Grove. His father sent a delegation to bring his son back, but they all converted upon hearing the Buddha and were soon enlightened. This happened another eight times with another eight delegations, all of whom forgot the message they were carrying. The ninth was led my a man called Katudayi, who also found Nirvana but remembered to pass on the message from the king that the Buddha was to return home.




Two years after finding enlightenment, he went home. Most of the royal court converted to Buddhism and the woman who brought him up became the first female nun.




There was briefly a schism when a rebel monk tried to kill the Buddha three times but failed.




The Buddha taught his message of freedom and simplicity over the plains of India for 45 years.




He died, reportedly after eating bad pork and or mushrooms. As he was carried to his funeral pyre, the chief disciple asked him to sum up the teachings of Buddhism. The Buddha said; 'There's nothing worth holding'.

Saturday, 9 February 2008

Self and Manifesting Kilesas


This is a map showing the three main delusions of Buddhism, greed, hate and delusion. The idea of the diagram is, after a long time observing the mind, it's possible to see many repeating varitions in thoughts and daydreams, on the same themes. So the self exists in the centre of the diagram. The are various fantasies in the mind, they are bason on aversion to something that happened in the past, or a desire for something to happen in the future etc.

There are some examples from an observation of my own mind. At the bottom left, it says 'school, starving and psychopath'. I've noticed there's a mental sequence that often plays, seemingly without my volition, in my mind, and it's about people, 'teachers and educators', being sadistic to me, cruel and hurtful (something that happened daily) and the fantasy continues (usually without my awareness at that point) to myself being at the same age and having decided not to eat anymore, I'm starving to death and free of the torment.

There's also a rarer fantasy, of myself at that age being diagnosed as having a psychopathic illness. I don't, incidentally! I don't even eat meat for pacifist reasons. But in the daydream, I've been diagnosed as dangerous, and the people around me are fearful and stay away from me.
So these two habitual fantasies, are based on aversion to the past.

But there's another daydream which starts often, which is being falsely accused of things I haven't done, usually by policemen, and going through the criminal justice system.
The word 'injustice' has been highlighted, because this is something that runs through all of them. In my past, there was this sadism and cruelty to me, and I've obviously carried it and now if fires avoidant type daydreams concerning my past and projections of the same basic emotion of pain I don't deserve as an aversion to a possible future.

The emotion this mindlessness causes fuels energy to the self which weaves the story of my past and future around itself and projects expectations onto other people and the future itself.
The idea of the diagram itself was to try and make some sense of the insight one gains into the self after an established mindfulness practice bears some fruit. Possibly the patterns that emerge can be linked to the life situation that one has created.

Although presently, I'm not sure this is a great idea. One has to bear in mind that the idea is to extinguish the self and be free of suffering, to pay to much attention to the mechanisms of self might in itself give it too much energy, and I'd be 'discovering myself with psychology' rather than 'freeing myself with Nirvana', thus it's not a practice I've continued.

Present Moment Magic

A map showing how staying in the moment, rather than focusing on desires in the future or lack in the past, increases presence and assists manifestation of positive desires.
I made this map when I was getting ready to leave London on the long trip. There were a lot of things I needed to finish because it wouldn't be possible once in Asia. I made a huge 'to do' list and it made me feel really overwhelmed, but then I thought, I'll make a map of what I want to get done. When I saw it laid out graphically, I could see how the various parts related, and although I still had the same amount of work to do, somehow it all felt more managable.

I think this is a really good tip. Rather than have 'to do' lists, try, 'to do maps' as, for some vague reason I can't quite put my finger on, it makes everything seem easier.

The things on the map are in a personal shorthand, which I think is the way that most people take notes or make 'to do' lists, but I think you can get the gist of it.

More Buddhist Lists

Some of the lesser known lists in Buddhism.




Magic Sensation Map



I made this map well over a year ago. It shows my idea for a new sensation-way of practising/manifesting magic. It's quite involved but I'll try and explain how I drew it.

At the top left there are two little figures with 'sensation map' written by them, and dots over the figures. This is based on my observations that:

  • The energy that manifests magic is the energy of emotion

  • The energy that prevents manifestation is the energy of emotions

  • The energy that creates our past and future is the energy of emotions

  • The energy that creates positive manifestations in the future is positive belief and expectation

  • The energy that creates negative manifestations in the future is negative belief and negative expectation

  • All emotions have a corresponding energy

  • The emotions felt in our body in any moment are experienced in physical sensations


Therefore, the system of magic I came up with involved making two human figure diagrams, one positive and one negative. While practicing magic, positive expectations (and thus karma/the future) were noted on the positive diagram, and the energy moved from the body to the diagram. The same was done with any spontaneous negative emotions/expectation. My system also made use of a 'storage system', basically, a small bottle of water carried permanently, to move negative sensation/emotion into moment-to-moment when it was noted.

The practice was, the sensation maps were used daily, the water transference constantly (whenever the negative sensation was noted). After one moon cycle (well, half actually), i.e. new to full moon, then the energy was released and grounded respectively, the negative by burying and the positive by burning.

The bottom left part of the diagram shows the idea was also to keep moment-to-moment consciousness in the present motion by focusing the the pure sensations.

Bottom right, the modalities part shows what to do with negative memories/thoughts, i.e. locate where they seem to be in consciouness/the body and transfer the energy to the water/away from the body. The mental pictures can be lessened by making them smaller or darker in consciousness. The 'ten possibilities' part means, once the negativity has passed, the practice was to dwell on, or come up with, at least ten positive possibilities contrary to the proceeding negativity, to reorientate the mind to positive/negative energy/sensations for later transference to the map.

Top right of the diagram shows the ethics of the system, i.e. make sure that magical goals/intentions have Nirvana/end of suffering as an ultimate goal and are within the precepts.

Yes, this was a very involved practice, and I'm practicing a much simplified and improved system now. All I can say is, it worked for me. I'm sitting here typing this in the situation I hoped to create. Watch this space for further additions/explanations/instructions on my method.

Mercury Map Desires


I thought it would be a good idea to have all magical intentions classified according to the planetary system, and then make a seperate mind map for each planet. The map itself becomes a focus for direct energy raised during practice.


This is just a single example for the planet Mercury.