Back in Asia - 2010

Dream - 25th July 2010

I was on a prison ?march. When I got to the destination, 'the' woman noted my bad leg and was sympathetic -- and gave me homeopathy, but it was very sweet-tasting. I asked her why Brian (my mother's partner) had put in so much sugar.

Interpretation

I think this is perhaps something I've considered to myself. When I was a kid, rather than bring me up, my mother chose to go with this guy and do what she wanted, not that I was complaining as I got to live in a 'sweet shop'.

But I think much of my previous stipend was based on her wanting to be with him, i.e. it was paid to A. when I was a kid, then to me when I became an adult.

Date: Friday 13th August 2010

'My House' Guest House and Restaurant, Soi Rambuttri, Banglampoo, Thailand. LT: 9.03pm

Errrr..... I think I've been here a month.

I guess I just was kind of busy, resting my foot, catching up plus didn't know where to go... and I think I was making the most of five pound rooms, i.e. not being harried to think where I'm going to be living each new day. Though actually, I've moved four times since I've been here.

When the plane landed, there was a round of applause, though I'm not sure why. I went through immigration and the officer didn't bat an eyelid at my non-o stamp. Got my bag and got out the airport. I had already found out about the airport bus, and so took it for about a fiver to Banglampoo.

It dropped me at Samsen Road near the top of Khao Sarn. I think it was about half ten at night by the time it got there. I already had a map of the place I'd booked at the same time I'd checked in my flight. I'd actually been there before ages ago. So I started walking and the map was accurate, though I was tired and bothered about my foot. God, I was so tired, and grateful to finally be somewhere.

I was going to go back down for some snack, but in the end I just lay down and was pretty much straight asleep. It was such a relief to be somewhere not feeling pressured about how much it cost, though this place certainly wasn't cheap.

I was going to ask about staying another day but the room was too dim and poor value over all, so I put my bag in and went looking. I ended up in Wild Orchid, off Rambutri. It had those horrible inner windows with slats and was unbeleivably dark, but actually, I used to sleep really soundly. I remember when this soi was just 'My House', Merry V and a travel agent. Now, it's like Khao Sarn used to be.

I think my foot got a little better during all this time. I made an appointment at Bumrungrad, but they wouldn't email me a definite price. Just approx. I mean, I only wanted an idea for the initial consultation, but they wouldn't even commit to that. When it was time to go, my cyst got bad again, I mean huge, like the last time I was in Siam Reap. It popped just as I was due to go. I don't know if it was the change of atmosphere, or the Calc C. I had started taking again?

I looked into other hospitals and realised that Adventist hospital, which I once walked to in 1993, has a clinic off Khao Sarn now. I went there one morning and it opened an hour late, but the woman said it was 350, which is good, and his speciality is tropical medicine. She told me to phone the next day for a same day appointment but when I did he was busy and I got the feeling he's got some cushy job and only turns up for work occasionally.

So I again, walked to the Adventist Hostpital. It was much further than I remembered. They have a card in English saying it won't be more than 700 as long as there's no procedures, but 700 is if the consultation is 'long', though there's no definition of long.

Since then I asked the oracle and it said if I go, there I will walk away after something goes wrong, but then a pleasant shock. If I don't go, nothing will change... but then there will be a favourable exchange. So, I'm not going.

OK, so that's health. Accomodation. I think I was in Wild Orchid for a couple of weeks. Then I booked a place near the train station and was there for a few days, but they charged for everything and it was incompetantly run. I moved back to Banglampoo, and then on my hospital day, ended up taking all day to get my bag from the other side of the city.

Where I am now is about six pounds, free wifi, fourth floor but one of the better places I've been in.

On the advice of the message boards, I went to Kasikorn bank to try and open an account, as I have a long visa now, but they wanted a work permit and it kind of got to me.

I think because of the jet lag, I had a ten day period where I used to wake up at three am. and go and work in a 24h restaurant. I did all my astrology for the year 2011, so now if there's an airplane ticket sale, I can snap up a bargain on a lucky day.

I used an atm in Silom and it didn't give me any money, but I noticed I'd been billed, and that was a major concern, but I phoned yesterday and it's been refunded. Nationwide are bringing in new charges in November for overseas withdrawel. 2% plus a flat fee of one pound. That means it's going to be cheaper to use my Barclaycard, but effectively, it kind of results in a 'pay cut' for me. This, with the worse exchange rate, new Thai side bank charges and it's all getting worse.

One morning I woke up and was thinking about the astrology I was working on and clairvoyantly saw my calendar, which was empty, and I realised it might mean... I was dead, and I panicked and woke up abruptly.

I've been catching up all the magick notes I was taking before I left Thailand, and organising that onto the web site. I've looked into destinations of where to go next, and nowhere is simple. But it is a long time here. I told them I'm going on Monday. Don't know if I will... well, perhaps the room will be booked. I have to go somewhere.

But that's pretty much what I've been doing for the past month. Not great, but still better than England. I still think about J. all the time, I often notice, every day really, but it's just something that's there. You already know that, don't you?

Anyway, I'm going to eat something now.