Starting 2010

Starting 2010

Note:
A lot happened on this period, from Western New Year to Chinese New Year, but I had to focus on study, yet the photos from the period are included chronologically with explanation, and the text of my dreams is below, but the narrated story has to come later in the diaries.

26th December 2009 - dream

I was at the cinema with A. The film was really boring and didn't make sense. In the story, an invisible monster was revealed when it made an impression of itself in a door and A said, 'They don't tell you that's there, do they?' Meaning she was also irritated that it was hard to follow.

Then I was in a wooden hut with two elderly people. One of them was keeping the other, and myself, prisoner, and she had her hands held. I managed to get free, slit the bond that was tying her hands. I was was worried the captor got out but I ran and told the neighbours to call the police

Interpretation

I think refereing to the different way I look at my childhood recently.

8/2/10

I was falling asleep and heard A. saying 'find a job'.

11-02-10 Dream

There had been some kind of mass disaster and I was in the aftermath. In walked into someplace I'd been to before the disaster, like a diner, and thought no one would remember me, but was surprised when the staff did actually remember me.

Saturday 13th Febuary 2010

Khiang Khong Guest House, Rim Kong Road, Nong Khai. Lt: 11:47pm

This is the third year in a row that there's been a diary running from Western New Year to Chinese New Year. Of course, only fifteen minutes to go, but I started it in time and will put any dreams above. This was after I'd got in the habit of writing every sunday! It wasn't wholly my fault though, and you can blame two things. One was the third experiment based tma for the psychology course, which took up all of my time. The other was what I thought was a virus I got on the usb memory which holds the local version of my website. It was around three weeks I spent on the Linux message boards with some absolutely fabulous human beings helping me, until I realised that it was (or they worked it out for me) a corrupted partition table. It's pretty much sorted now, though I had to buy three new memory sticks to back all 'me bits up.

So I'll just write what happened while I was away, briefly, from memory.

There was the third tutorial for the English course. I didn't realise until a day or so before it closed, but I made it to put something in in time and that was kind of OK, but I'm still in the poetry part, and it's heavy going. When I'm past this then I've done the hardest part of all the courses.

Tma03 of psychology, this is the part that worried me. I put something in about two hours before deadline. I used PSPP and not SPSS, I had to learn all the mathematic parts, ugh, but I made it on time.

My ear got a lot worse, much, much worse. I've lost most of the hearing in the right ear, I don't know if it's permanent, I'm looking into doing something about it now. The ringing in it is driving me mad.

I sent J her card.

I had a podcast from Buddhist Geeks about western magick. I'm particularly interested in the crossover between magick and buddhism, so had saved it. I finally listened to it for some reason and it, basically, blew my mind, or rather the websites of the author. I've got passionate about it (I wrote 'compassion' accidentally, can their be Fruedian slips when typing?). I've been looking all around the website, have been taking notes, have decided that the next diary will include a magical diary also. I read on the site that some... no, I mean, I was looking at the different models of enlightenment and read the comment that in the west, the models of enlightenment are personified as a relationship... and it pretty much blew my mind. I've got a Chinese New Year ritual tomorrow, and a new spiritual practice. I'm still deciding the best way to write it all up. But I'm back on track.

22 02 10 Dream

I was on a ship

27 02 10 Dream

I was in a hotel. I bought an air ticket from the owner which would depart from another country.

When it was time to go I packed up but the woner hadn't booked any connectying flights or gransport to get to the airport. He didn't seem to care. There was nothing I could do. I ?think? in the dream I still knew I would get on the plane somehow

Interpretation

?bad childhood/past?

07 03 10 Dream

I was with a (?my) family and we were stranded by a river that intersected a road. I went up on the road and looked at the river and it wasd clear water that was full of fish, big ones! I started walking looking for help. A car went past and the people saw me but wouldn't help. I reached a town. I heard there was a mechanic someone suggested that he'd killed the last traveller and I wasn't sure if it was a joke or not.

09 03 10 Dream

I was trying to find a present for A. and ended up getting her just a travel bag with something written on - I think it was my name.

12 03 10 Dream

I dreamt of some letters, I ?think: MBR

13 03 10 Dream

I was in some quiet town and dad gave me a life but on arrival wanted a taxi fare, which I didn't have - so I had to go back to his house and give it to him.

Then I was out on a very quiet road and there was a dog and I wasn't sure it was dangerous. Then it was joined by other dogs from around and I got scared, but then a group of people came and I tagged along with them. I knew I could blend in and it made me happy.

diary 12-3-10

same day: exam (61%), 2 diff people spoke to me.